Drafty-Draft Poem Book!

To Be Feminine, By Kenzi Kimball

My brain never accepted the word

“Womanhood”

I never developed a relationship with 

Her

The signal had fizzled out 

synapses growing miles apart

never truly connecting

Stuck in the liminal space

Forced to identify with one gender

Though it is ever changing

Free flowing

Every day a new experience

Reflection on Writing: 

For all drafts but the final, I was stuck on trying to use computer imagery/terms. In the final draft, I decided I wanted to make it feel more human, because the poem talks about a human experience and not a digital/robot experience and I didn’t want to boil that emotion down using that terminology. I struggled with how long I wanted to make the poem. This came from all the emotions I was feeling behind the poem wanting to jump out on the page. However, I feel like I narrowed down the poem to just long enough to feel some of the emotions I wanted to portray. I feel like I could make a string of poems relating to the topic discussed, but I wanted to put enough of it into the real estate I had so I could expand the poem later if I wanted to. What guided me through to the final draft on page 6 was the different descriptive words I would come up with each day. For example, my brain really stuck onto the words “disconnect”, “error”, “fizzled out”, “denouncing”, “rejoicing”, and “stuck”. I think this helped lead me to the final poem, conveying the feelings those words produce, but in a shorter/more concise poem.

Reflection on Bookmaking:

The color of the paper used to make the book is a very obvious personal touch since I embody the color purple every day with my hair and clothes. Little did I know how important that aspect would be to the poem! The poem inside comes from a very personal experience with gender. So, I wanted to focus on the words and color scheme rather than to make extravagant drawings to go along with the poem. I wanted to embellish the pages by picking out a favorite word used from each page. This is why you see “ERROR”, “STUCK”, and “FREE” written out, as well as the “no signal” symbol and a puzzle piece on pages 3 and 4. I wrote those words in all caps because I felt it would be more impactful, kind of like a reminder of the emotions within the poem. For the covers, I picked out tissue paper I used for a similar poetry book project I just finished in ART324 (The Painted Book 3D). That book has a very similar message about gender and I thought it would be really cool to tie these two projects together! The purple and green colors on this paper are why I specifically chose to use it for both projects. In recent years, I have noticed that when a parent decides to raise their child outside the gender binary (not referring to them as a boy or a girl), they tend to use shades of green or purple for their nurseries and clothes. That is the significance of the paper I used, and I think it adds a fun touch if the reader can make that connection between the colors and the content of the poem. 

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